" No matter what shape or size you are, you should feel confident in your own skin. You should feel like a beautiful woman, no matter what! "
Today is a bit of a beauty, insecurity, self-love blog. It's about my biggest insecurity, how I have dealt with it and how I will continue to deal with it and how it's forced me to show a little bit more love to my self. Let's talk about my skin and list its problems. I have eczema, pigmentation, dry, sensitive, flaky, prone to scarring, easily tears, acne prone, allergic to most things, Keratosis pillars and forever changing skin. It has been this way since I was a kid and with every new stage of my life, a new problem arises and the minute I think I might just have this under control something changes again.
Right now, I am dealing with a few acne break outs, a dry eczema patch that seems to be on the edge of becoming infected and a major Keratosis pillars flare up along my thighs and knees plus my face is dry, tight and stings. And all I can do is use my multiple creams, washes and wait it out.
My first major allergic break out that I can remember was when I was about 10 maybe 11, we had just gotten a new spa and my skin did not like the chemicals that were placed in it, I reacted so bad that my mum thought I had measles, a trip straight to my doc showed it was a chemical reaction and I spent the next 3 weeks having my mum put steroid cream on me and I still remember how much it hurt every time she touched raw and scabbed skin. Over the years my parents didn't want me to have to live on steroid creams and antihistamines, so they took the time to figure out what washing powders, body washes and creams I could use, it took time and a lot of money, but eventually, mum, had it figured out and for some time, things were good, as long as I used the very expensive ph balanced, smell like nothing body wash and apply moisturiser 2-3 times a day, but I still had to use a low based steroid cream on areas that had flare ups on rare occasions.
Until...at 17 I got chicken pox everywhere, as my skin was dry anyway it was an added itchiness and having to change my wash to the pinetarsol for the pox, my skin started to go down hill, I also discovered that I scar easily. In this same year, I also tried to go on multi-vitamins and finding out I was allergic to them, my body started to reject them via my skin, causing me to be so itchy and scratch myself to the point of causing sores along my ankles and feet.
Now at the age of 24 my skin has a lot of problems and still have scars and I try my best to stick to everything I need to be doing, but of course stress, my diet and the fact that the minute I think I have it right my skin changes again, takes its toll on me which of course doesn't help. The next problem is that a lot of my issues are invisible and masked by an army of products and strict regimes and many say how nice my skin looks but beneath it all, it is an on going battle . Most women have insecurities when it comes to weight or certain body parts but for me, my biggest insecurity is my biggest organ, the thing that covers my whole body the one thing that no amount of working-out, dieting or surgery will ever fix.
Now for the point of my depressing skin story, insecurities are part of everyday life and they are hard to work through and hard to over come and sometimes they are just there and you have to learn to live with them, the good thing about insecurities is they force you to learn to love yourself, for me I take the time to care for my skin the best way I can and love me for me. Once I have a skin regime that works and last longer than 6 months I will share, but for now, if you want to ask about any product and want a review I have probably tried it. What ever your insecurities might be, start to except it, start to change it or start to overcome it because it is possible, it just takes time.
Until Next time, Be Fearless